I can’t sleep last night. I keep on waiting for your good night and every time I check my bbm there’s no message from you. I don’t know how long I can survive in this relationship. Just the thought of breaking our relationship broke my heart into pieces. Just when finally I fell asleep I had a dream about you. I was in a bus thinking about breaking it up. Just when I go out of bus you were there, in your suit, walking towards me. A bit drunk, and grab my hand. We walk hand in hand and we stopped a taxi. You did throw up in the taxi and I’ve to hold a plastic bag to your mouth. We’re going to my hotel first. But in my mind I know you gonna laugh cause I was broke and I’m staying in a cheap place that was so bad and I don’t even know if I could stand it there. We reached, and yeah we told the taxi to wait once you look at the semi-resto-and-hotel. I took out my key, and u took out your key-card hotel and acted as if my room use a card as the key and you laugh. I could only give you the ha-ha face. We go to my room, when I open it I was like “Eeeek” cause now it looks disgusting with a leak at the corner roof. You laugh, and I heard something like “I told you” from you. You went to the sink and I gave you toothpaste. I grab my backpack. And walk to you. We look eyes to eyes. There’s a fire n our eyes. Why do I have this so much desire unto you? Flame dancing around us. Then you grab my hand without saying a word. We walk out of the room to our taxi. I don’t remember how long did it take to reach your hotel. All I remember is my hand in your hand. My fingers are so small and you hold my hand as if it belongs there. We reach your hotel. Go straight to the lift. You press 15 floor. Then you just put your lips on my neck. Without kissing it. And I feel like flying, a song that always reminds me of you plays in my head. And then you look into my eyes and said “we will never skip this lift ritual” and smile. I feel like kissing you. At that time all I could think is my love for you. The deepest love I ever felt to anyone. We reach our floor. Go straight to your room. Your room was twin bed because the hotel is full book and that’s the only room left. But I remember you said “it”s okay as long as it can fit both of us.”. Once inside we open our clothes. Then you start kissing me. I know we won’t make love. It will not happen between us. You knows that I won’t do it unless I’m marriage. But that time when we kiss, I know I wanna do it with you. My feeling was so big that I can’t hold it in my heart. And again, I know you will stop me. Because you love me and you respect me. I’m swayed by your kiss. Then I woke up. Reality hits me that it was just a dream. I checked on my bb. For the first time there’s no good morning from you. I checked on the clock and it’s 8.08am. You usually say morning at 7 or 7.30. And it hits me. I was thinking about breaking this up. I have to get used without you saying good morning and good night. And in the end all I could do is crying. And think how to mend my heart back from pieces. Now I know I’m broken hearted already. What’s to safe when there’s no us, but only myself.